Once, somebody told me...

Grandmothers balcony
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I remember somebody telling me how stupid it sounds when I say that music can heal.
I remember somebody telling me how stupid it sounds when I say that writing poems and songs can heal.
I remember somebody telling me how stupid it is when I say that I want to live my own life.
I remember somebody telling me how stupid I am because I am who I am.
I remember somebody telling me not to cry when I get slaped.
I remember somebody telling me not to scream when something bad happens.
I remember somebody telling me that people around me die because I am bad.
I remember somebody telling me that noone can be my friend because I look like the way I do.
I remember somebody telling me...... much more than what I could ever write down.

Sometimes I remember someone telling me that I shouldn't be alive.